Major Update

Well, for those of you who read my blog, AKA no one I'm sure, I am finally back. After many moons, I have returned to get out all my angst.

I had an excuse for being gone. It was the end of the school year, and I was really busy with school and work. Then school was over and work calmed down, and I never came back. I just never felt like writing. But I do right now and I'm ready to spill my guts. Prepare yourself for a long rambling post.

School ended up ending fine. Math was a major stresser, but I maintained my grade, which was what I wanted. Theatre was stressful too, with 2 scenes for my final instead of the normal 1 that the rest of the class (minus 1 person) was doing. It all turned out well, and I got a B in the class, which made me happy. A theatre friend asked me out, which stressed me out, me being the innocent naive girl that I am. Thankfully, everything got straightened out, and we are still friends.

Meanwhile, David was becoming increasingly distant, not talking to me online (he made it so no one would know he was online, presumably so he didn't have to talk to us). WE went to the Ren Fest (his birthday present to me), but he seemed a bit distant. Eventually it got to the point that I had to talk to him, and we broke up. He says he realized he needs to mature some more and doesn't want to date while he's working on it. He says he does want to get back with me, but after about a month, I think that I don't want to, unless he changes a lot of stuff. The whole way he's handled this has made me upset and I've realized he's not the amazing guy I had him set up as. Don't get me wrong, I don't think he's a bad person, he's just not as great as I thought he was. He is in fact a fallen person. As am I. And I've been reading Wild at Heart, a book about discovering a man's heart. It's technically written for men, but it's helpful for women to understand men better. It's been very interesting and helpful. It made me realize I want a guy like they describe in the book. I'm not going to settle for just anyone. Not that I did with David, I just want to be more selective next time. I don't know if I'm making any sense, but I sure love getting my thoughts out of my head and onto paper, or in this case, onto the computer screen.

I fully respect David's decision, but I am upset with him for a few different reasons. Number 1: he just left me hanging. He wouldn't talk to me for over a month! He should have said something earlier instead of just leaving me to worry. Number 2: he's still pretty much leaving me hanging. He says he wants to be friends and hang out and such, but he rarely talks to me. How are we supposed to be friends if he won't talk to me? One night, I was trying to talk to him. He asked me to hold on for a minute while he helped Greta with something. An hour later, he signed off without ever talking to me. Frankly, I think he's being rude and I am rather upset.

So after Daivd and I break up, I find a friend on facebook who I haven't seen in a while. So we become friends, then we start chatting, and soon we start hanging out. I figured out pretty quickly that he likes me, and today he finally asked me out on a date. Now, he's a great guy who I love to talk to, but I am not interested in him that way. Maybe it's because of David, because frankly I'm still not sure where I stand with him and how I feel. But I also don't want to get into a relationship right now. So for now at least, we're gonna be just friends and continue watching movies, playing tennis, and shooting arrows. :D