Clothes

I have decided that women's winter clothing is designed to keep us cold. At the least, the fancy clothes are. I have 1, maybe 2, long-sleeved shirts for church. The rest are short sleeve, with one being sleeveless. And last night, I was picturing a sleigh ride through the snow, all dressed up, but I realized that evening gowns rarely have sleeves, and I could think of none with long sleeves. So I realized it would be a very cold sleigh ride. And today, I was looking at clothes online at Forever 21, and there wasn't a single long-sleeved dressy shirt. And often they are made of silk, which is not know for being particularly warm. And even casual shirts that are long-sleeved aren't very warm. Old Navy is a particular offender, making shirts so thin you can almost see through them.

What is the purpose of wearing such cold clothing? What do they hope to accomplish by making such clothing? It is so we can still show off skin in the dead of winter? No thank you! I like to stay warm. To do so, I have taken to wearing multiple jackets, a scarf, gloves, tights, knee-high socks, and whatever else I can find to keep me warmer. Sometimes this includes a boyfriend, which makes me quite happy. Unfortunately, we can't do some things we usually do due to the cold weather, which has me shivering quite a bit sometimes, making me want to curl into a ball. Fortunately for him though, I like to snuggle up against him for warmth.

I can think of no other reasons, and certainly no good reasons, why winter clothes aren't warmer. I suppose it will remain a mystery.

Bad Dream

This morning, I had a horrible dream.

I dreamed I was in a high school class, but one of my college teachers was a student in there. For some reason, I had my AP English essays and scores from the test, and that sparked a conversation with another student about AP classes. My college teacher, Karen Robinson, heard us, and took me out of the room. Apparently I was supposed to turn in my AP stuff to her, even though she wasn't my teacher for either AP English or AP Bio. I asked her if I should turn my AP Bio stuff into T. McGee, my teacher, and she basically told me that T. McGee is a bad teacher,so no, I should give it to her.

Then she made me do this exercise. I don't remember it very well, but it involved me jumping on rocks or something and trying to get something. It was really cool, and pretty fun. When the exercise was over, I had become brainwashed basically. I was going to go on a trip with a bunch of other people she had brainwashed. Then my boyfriend and best friend showed up. My boyfriend tried to get me to go somewhere else with him, somewhere better and safer, but I was brainwashed, so I didn't want to go. I wanted to go with these other people, but I didn't want to leave him. So I was going to have him come with us. But I was rather conflicted on what to do. For some reason, I thought I was on the phone with him in real life while I was dreaming. So he's talking to me on the phone, and in the dream. When I proved rather unresponsive to him (because I was conflicted and didn't know what to do; I was trying to think it out), he said I was talking to him like we weren't dating, or hadn't been dating. He broke up with me over the phone. I was devastated. I tried sending him bumper stickers on facebook telling him I'm sorry and I want him back,but he didn't respond. Thankfully my best friend was there to hug me and try to comfort me. Then I got word that because I wanted to bring him on the trip, I can't go. So now I'm stuck where I am, with no boyfriend. I had lost everything I wanted at that moment.

Waking up, I realized it was a dream, but the feeling of sadness over losing him hasn't left. I know he isn't gone, especially since I got an email from him this morning, but I can't help but feel depressed and lonely. I miss him sooo much right now.

I turned on my depressing break up music, and February Song by Josh Groban came on. The lyrics pretty much describe how I feel right now, and if I was still dreaming, I would want to send him the lyrics to tell him how I feel.


Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes, opens his eyes
Where is that simple day
Before colors broke into shades
And how did I ever fade
Into this life, into this life

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Morning is waking up
And sometimes it's more than just enough
When all that you need to love
Is in front of your eyes
It's in front of your eyes

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
From this crazy world

And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
When all that I've known is lost and found
I promise you I, I'll come back to you one day

Where has that old friend gone
Lost in a February song
Tell him it won't be long
Til he opens his eyes
Opens his eyes