Who Am I?

Who am I? That's a good question. I am a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a niece, a granddaughter, a friend. One of the biggest, and most important, facets of who I am is I am a Christian. I love God and seek His will for my life. I am a library technician and a student. This is where it gets tricky though. I may be all these things, but what is my thing? Where's my nook? My best friend's thing is art. Her brother, my boyfriend, is a computer and bagpipe person. Her boyfriend's thing is music, business, and statistics. He actually has quite a few things. Another friend has music and teaching. But what is my thing? I thought it was English. I love literature and have always been a rabid reader. I love to write, though I confess I'm not that great. I'm good at grammar, although I don't like it. I'm fond of poetry, although pretty incapable of writing it. But I thought, I could be an editor and put those grammar skills to work, while getting to read loves of books. Sounds perfect!

I got into college, and had to take either music, art, or theatre appreciation. I always liked theatre, but that was always another friend's nook. But I heard horror stories of music appreciatin, and I have absolutely no drawing skills. So off to theatre appreciation it was! And I loved it. Next semester, as l picked out my classes, I decided to sign up for another theatre class, one where I actually got to act. A little over a week ago, we had a guest teacher from Ireland. He runs the Gaiety School of Acting over there in Dublin. There's a study abroad opportunity to study there for a month. I would love to do it. And I realize, theatre is coming to an end. But I don't want it to. I have always enjoyed being in plays, even though I never get a major role. And a brilliant thought comes into my head. I can major in theatre and performance studies. Suddenly my world is thrown upside down. I know this is a major decision I need to think, and pray, about. I tell my best friend what I'm considering. She tells me she always thought I should be a theatre major. I had no idea! She had never said anything before.

Oh, and by the way, I had failed my English class last semester. It was completely unlike any English class I had ever had before, and I didn't know how to handle it.

I tell my parents about it. They don't think I should do it. My friends are supportive (my boyfriend didn't have a comment, but I'm sure he'll support whatever decision I make), but still I am unsure. So now I have to decide: am I an English person, or a theatre person? Which am I better at? Am I even good at them? Is this where I belong? Can I make a living from acting? That's my parent's concern. English is safe. I'm tired of being safe. I want to take a risk. I want to defy gravity. Spread my wings and fly.